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Thursday, February 7th, 2008
12:44 pm - My livejournal
My journal is mostly private or friends only due to it's nature. It is a safe place for me to express my feelings and thoughts. If you would like to be added to my wonderful, wacky and sometimes depressing, but nethertheless interesting life....Please reply below.

(7 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Tuesday, November 20th, 2007
3:18 pm - Writer's Block: My Fictional Counterpart
What character in a book can you connect with or relate to the most?

I relate mostly to Ophelia from Shakspeare's Hamlet.

current mood: content

(1 dog bite | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Wednesday, April 18th, 2007
5:55 pm - vt massacre
grief stricken faces
the bones of people disappear
just skin and tears
collapsed into a white tissues
like melting glaciers
crashing into frigid, feirce

somewhere someone is trying to reach you
but you can't hear it
your cell phone is ringing and ringing
they hear your voicemail message over and over
an awkward voice, unsure what to say
"leave a message" you say, and "i'll get back to you"

I listen to your voice over and over
and more and more
I hear death speaking to me instead
my skeleton pulls away from the flesh
the phone
my body
[I pretended to be dead]

current mood: sad

(my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Monday, June 5th, 2006
12:40 pm - doin' the mess around
my birthday was so much fun! despite the torrential down pour....
I got lots of nice gifts :0)
i got some clothes, the new tomb raider game, mary oliver book of poems, the new tool cd, amd an lword book of the series.
oh and of course my brother and alex bought me drinks
and my parents took me and alicia to atlantic city :0)

on my actual b-day my mom bought me yellow roses
i took myself out for lunch bc nobody was around and my mom was busy making me crabs and spaghetti! they were so amazing.....i kept sitting there eating them for a half hour lol

so i went to tiki bob's for my b-day with my brother, shawn, theresa (brother's gf), and athena.
they gave me a free 1st drink and 2 free tickets to go back there
i got this big cup....called a tiki nut, filled it with this blue stuff and it was my big blue drink lol
i had so much fun dancing there with my boa lol, the announced my 21st b-day too!

unfortunately we didnt get to go to flo where melissa and alicia were....
but we met up with them later at joe's steaks (such a great place to eat!)

on saturday, we went to atlantic city....we went to the trump where i got my 1st casino card.
i won a couple times of the slots....about $26.50...then i lost it all ha
we went to tropicana, beautiful place! we ate at their buffet....great crab legs!
then gambled some more....
alicia won i think $15 ....
my parents won $100!
my father says he barely broke even..lol

then yesterday i finally got to see kei. i missed her so much

so i had a great birthday, thank you to everyone who made it possible!

current mood: happy

(2 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Friday, June 2nd, 2006
12:04 pm - :0D
It's my birthday today! I'm finally 21! I'm so excited lol

I went to Kildare's last night with Alex and some of his friends...
it was about 10:30 and i asked the bouncer if it was ok...
ands he's says..wellllllll....sure.
so im like YAY! i was mso worried they were gonne say no..
so everyone was buying me drinks.....it was awesome
my 1st was a car bomb...
lol i didnt drink it fast enough apparently and the baileys curdled...
oh well, i drank a lot of it though, which is crazy considering that i hate beer....
guiness isnt that bad lol
then a long island ice tea
a sex on the beach
a red-headed slut which despite the name, is a REALLY good shot!
(and those of you who have drank anything with me know that I SUCK at shots!)
and then when i actually turned 21...they all wanted me to take a yeiger shot lol
which i knew was a bad idea...
i took half of it ...and then spit up the rest....
so i did throw up a lil bit...but its better than usual ha
i still think with all that i drank i should have been a lot more drunk...but whatever...
i may have said some other drink i dont know about...lol
i was dancing around with people i didnt know, it was fun
so i had a fun night...and im hoping tonight will be fun too....:0D

so today my moms making me crabs and spaghetti (OMG SO GOODD!!)
then we're have a party with cake and all :0D
then im going out with my friends, my brother, and my brother's friends
then on saturday, my parents are taking me to atlantic city....
where i will win a million dollars
and with that money i will buy a mini cooper convertible, pay off all my college debts, move to califronia, and get my poetry book published

ha, i wish. so thats my b-day
if anyone wants to come to my party, feel free :0)

current mood: cheerful

(4 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
12:30 am - A reminder to everyone.....
this is just a reminder to whoever reads my live journal..

you dont have to read it.

none of the posts are contingent upon you reading it.....so if you dont like what i have to say then dont read it or dont put me on your friends page anymore..

i will not apologize for the thoughts that are in my head,although i never mean to offend anyone (unless its really obvious).....

so just reminding you, my journal has nothing to do with you.
you want to comment then feel free.. but please realize that my posts are usually always based upon and over flowing emotion that needs to take on a text form.
so dont be suprised if i am not exactly open to people questioning me and how i am..bc its about me.
its not about some subject that has nothing to do with me.
this journal is me..
you question whats in it, than you're questioning me.

and i should not have to feel bad about what i put in it.

so i implore you...if you are just going to throw what's ever in here back in my face then just dont read it or do not be my friend on here anymore...

thank you

current mood: tired

(my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Monday, May 29th, 2006
3:07 pm
im just going to delete this fucking journal

i just hate people

(my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Friday, February 10th, 2006
3:52 pm - Some friend deletions
I just want everyone to know,
that I deleted some people off my friends list.
I'm mostly assuming most of them dont write in live journal anymore and have moved on to myspace.....or I you're on my friends list and I dont really remember how I know you....
or I just dont want you to read my journal anymore (or have the oppurtunity to read it).

So nothing really personal, I honestly think most of you wouldnt really care either way anyway

(1 dog bite | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Saturday, December 24th, 2005
1:02 am
The Window Shopper
Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDf)

Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper.

You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come.

Your exact opposite:
The Stiletto

Deliberate Brutal Sex Master
Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a girl you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns.

Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic woman is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs.

BEWARE: Genghis Khunt

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor, The Peach, The Window Shopper

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: horizonyourun2

current mood: yummy

(3 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
1:23 pm
Tell me your favorite winter memory

current mood: dirty

(2 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
11:57 pm - A poll......please respond!
ok so we were talking about the choice of having
LGBT housing on campus.
So that freshman and other students can have
the choice of being around LGBT people to make it a
more comfortable enviroment for them.
This would most likely be an entire floor or
possibly a couple wings entirely dedicated
to LGBT students.


what do you guys think of this? good idea? bad idea?
what reasons do you have?


current mood: thoughtful

(7 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Sunday, August 7th, 2005
3:05 pm - I wish you could see me when im flying in my dreams..
the way I laugh there, way up high
the way I look
when I fly
the way I laugh.....the way i FLY......

I LOVE that song
Patty Griffin :0)

so i havent been on lj for awhile...I actually havent been online for awhile...
I dont know why i guess theres too much to watch on tv...lol
so I went horse back riding yesterday with my sister..
it was truly a unique experience....
I had a huge horse......this horse was a monster..his name was Sunny
he was cute tho :0)
it was so beautiful in the woods.....I never went horseback riding through the woods..
I mean it's like you were so close to nature as opposed to concrete jungle...the sun couldnt even get through to the forest floor because there was so many trees
it was cool in there....about 75
there were lil creeks that we went through....there were butterflies in millions of different colors...it was gorgeous.....just breath taking
I'm glad I went to experience that

my butt still hurts tho heh heh

current mood: calm

(2 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Saturday, June 11th, 2005
3:03 am - WOW Ani tickets!
I just found 2 front row tickets to Ani!
its for the reading show
and they are $119 for BOTH! plus $14 shipping

Is ANYBODY interested?
I REALLY wanna go!

please tell me asap

the auction ends 1 day and 15 hours and something minutes

according to mapquest, it's 1 hour and 14 minutes away

current mood: excitedly tired

(4 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
1:35 pm
So i want to get a bike
mainly to lose weight
but I would like to ride around to places rather than use my car all the time
but the thing with me is
I'll get this big idea in my head
get what I want
then not even look at it

and bikes are not as cheap as I remember.....especially if I want to get a really nice one
I mean I just imagine myself riding around town.....riding around campus.....
if I go to temple....riding around the city....
even riding to work ha

I even wanted an mp3 player.....and a lil bag to ride with me.....

I mean its not like I can't afford the bike, it's just i dont want screw myself over with it
especially since the two I've been looking at was $215 and $270
Does anyone else know where other bike shops are?
I looked at a Raleigh bike shop...

I mean this is like a real committment, If Im gonna pay $270 for a bike I HAVE to ride it! If not to lose weight, just to make myself feel better that I spent that much money on it!

current mood: contemplative

(1 dog bite | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Monday, June 6th, 2005
5:04 pm - Rent the movie!
Yes they're making Rent into a movie!
with all the original cast members (except Mimi)!
Nikki just gave me the clip today

check it out!

the sound isnt too great but its so exciting!
I got chills :0)
Nikki cried

It looks really good from the movie clips...
I still want to see it on stage though!

current mood: excited

(4 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
11:41 am - Wow, I'm no longer a teenager
It's my 20th birthday today
I still have no clue what to do on it
my mom and I are supposed to go out....
something tells me we're probably not since she just got into the shower and she has to go to work at 2:30

I never like my brithday......it's a day filled with too many expectations and they usually always get crushed, I'm always disappointed by "special days" ....they never go as planned

well, I hope it's fun this year

current mood: okay

(5 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Monday, May 23rd, 2005
11:20 pm - My god I work too much....but I don't make enough money
so melissa and I went for a walk today....an hour long one :0)
we're trying to get into shape

my birthday is soon
June 2! 10 days!
its on a thursday

I need ideas for what I can do......
what can a 20 year old do on her birthday?
well last year sucked so I need to have FUN this year!
What did people do on thier 20 year old b-days? or just b-days heh

current mood: tired

(3 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
6:37 pm - Ani Difranco
Would anybody want to go see ani on tuesday April 26?

It would be $35


(3 dog bites | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
11:53 am - You don't see me at all
Im excited

I was looking at Tyler School of Art again today! I requested a catalog and an application!

I really think thats its a MUCH better art school then the program they have here and theres so many possiblities......glass blowing! fabric design! Jewelry making!I could just dip and dab and find out what I want....

Im so excited that I might be going there in the spring semester :0D

well i still dont know what I want to do exactly, but Im pretty sure its somewhere in Art.....
however I still want a minor in Literature :0)

I just think I could really grow there and find out my true passion...well, atleast i hope so....
its $1,000 + to go there than west chester, theres also a portfolio veiwing thats apart of the application process to their school :0/
I could always get my old art teacher, Mr. Buchy, to help me out...he went to Tyler, I'm sure he wouldn't steer me wrong in the portfolio selection...
I do have a vast, and diverse amount of work....
I dont see why I couldn't get in :0)

sometimes I think west chester u is just mind numbing...I want to be inspired.

current mood: excited

(1 dog bite | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

Monday, March 28th, 2005
2:33 am
will anyone ever understand all of my beautiful complexities?
that every day is unique?
will they drown in the madness of what I am?
will i drown along with them?
maybe im just glorifying myself
maybe there's nothing complex at all
maybe i am just a body that moves
in motion who found a solution
to glorifying the human brain

that we are simple

but its the simplicity
that makes us unique
bc we try so desperately to be ourselves
but ourselves are a patented creation
from magazines
from music....movies....art
we want to think that we are so misunderstood
but there is a culture to being misunderstood
theres a drug to take
theres a field of study to major in....

we are never completely unique....we just create from something that has already been imitated
already patented
in a movie theater near you

thats unique
take away the media...
all of the paths of life...
everything GONE
just a blank page

if you didn't know anything about anything.....
what would you think?

(1 dog bite | my dog won't bite if you sit real still)

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